Every time I cross that road, I discover new things...

 Every time I cross that road, I discover new things...

though I saw I didnt see it exists..

the journey again and again through that same road made me aware of its presence...

while I see 60 degrees straight, how is it I failed to see what was present even in that 60 degrees view.. fully knowing that there is still 300 degrees view I would not be able to see at any point in time.  

some times we need walking more often down that same road to observe.. or may be  more then just the vision.... 

flowing water - that I am...

I am that flowing water underneath,
though above I look like layer of ice.

Come summer and the ice will melt,
and open my real self,

should you wonder?

the floating leaf...

That leaf , learned to adapt to the storms of the sea on which it was floating
floating left and right yet it adapted to float on its waves so crude and high , 
and not give in to its force as they hit it high,

leaf was carrying the ant on it...

from behind comes the ship with full force...
splashing waves and roaring high and carrying 100 people
moving in the direction of the leaf...
and ahead....

leaf bewilders on the ships size and its speed and it cries
that it is not able to carry 100 people .. it is not able to swim past in that speed
splashing and sloshing ...

the leaf will yet reach its shore..
was it as big as the ship.. not at all...
but it reached its shore with the ant ..

Atleast I planted the tree ...

Dont know where we come from and where we go..

for each one comes alone and alone do they go...

is it not the fallacy that we think that we live in groups..

that groups and the surrounding makes us happy or otherwise, 

each one ponders and wanders on their path, to learn or not...in their journey of life...

In life's daily matters,

I take false pride when I do some good by helping someone ... 

I dont know what is good or what is bad in the larger scheme of things as my view is myopic

and that what is done cannot be undone..

yet that fallacy of good I perceived that feeds my ego 

I create some friend and some foe 

based on our own perception are the images each has built in their own minds of being my friend or my foe  ... 

but in my biopic 

Atleast I planted the tree...

Who knows that some day who will sit on that tree .. 

a chirping bird or colourful chameleon  

or a passerby taking some rest under its shade

who knows that the rain water that tree beholds in its roots would water its neighbourhood and quench their thirst. 

for i don't know what shape that action will take 

but atleast I planted the tree.. 

Who knows that tree would cry on its lonesome standing.. 

who knows that the tree may have to stand the storms .. 

and bear the droughts and curse some more on its hardships due to some one who led it to its existence ...

was it the hardships that it bore alone which was making it modest and wise or was it its virute...

and how would it even know the blessing that the others gave to it for the calmness and solace it gave to them...

Who knows who keeps the count of goodness or blessings.. 

but atleast I planted the tree....

I dont know who 'I' am who planted the tree.... 

some day "I" will vanish like everyone else..

will that tree remain ? 

I dont know.

but atleast I planted the tree...

The wooden elephant ...

He saw me and followed me to sell his bell hangings, thinking I was a foreigner started selling in broken English. "Mam 2 for 150 Rs only" , "Mam please buy it is my first sell for the day"

I deny him by hand as I make my way walking from park to home and he follows me.

Few steps and he realizes probably I am not a foreigner and switches to Hindi and the moment I respond in Gujarati saying "I do not want but here you could keep the 10 Rs" he switched to Gujarati - our mother tongue. Smart chap he was not more than 10-12 years of age.

He swiftly replied "we don't take free money but believe in hard work and hard earned money" I was impressed by his diligence to work hard to earn and perseverance to make a sell. As I responded with friendly smile, each in our brains having different thoughts me about how persistent and honest hard working can one be and he thinking someone friendly responded and that that connection should not be let loose, he comes down from 150 Rs for 2 to 75 Rs for 2. To which also I gently refused.

But his persistence of saying that he would not want to take free Rs 10 offered and believes in hard work and that this was his first sell of the day , so I said "I would not want the bells as I have enough but what all do you have to sell" , he mentions that this is all he has and  would give away 2 for 75 Rs.

I later asked him "Don't you have such small wooden elephants  which were also part of the bell string as loose products to sell" " I could buy one piece for 20 Rs",  to which he was fast to say , "Didi, (sister) I can break this bell and you can just have this elephant piece" I reiterated that I would pay 20 Rs for that to which he was like in 20 rs we don't even get it at our place and he could sell me one at Rs 30 and he would go and remake this bell with other wooden elephant piece ..

Usually I do not like breaking things or destructing things, so I am insisting not to break the bell just for that piece but he also reiterates that its ok and he would remake that one at home.

The smart boy now thinking that he's convinced me sufficiently he gears up to break the bell and separate the elephant piece from the bell string before I change my mind and his fast mind gauging that he had to make quick sell breaks the bell and hands over the wooden elephant piece as swiftly he could. As I say I had told on 20 Rs he hackles and reiterates that it would cost me 30 Rs.

As I give him 30 Rs and take the wooden elephant appreciating his presence of mind and persistence internally , both of us had a smile on our faces...His was one of victory and smartness of how  he could quickly sell and achieve what he wanted to and so was on mine .. me thinking that how education ( formal)  was really redundant at times and learning on the go ,  street smartness can be acquired at any corner if hardwork and being present in the moment is applied every waking minute.

So it is. Such is life.. Learning every waking minute. Being present in the moment every waking minute

life perspectives

I see them working incessantly, to put that structure frame by frame into a building day after day even in the scorching heat.. those masons...

No time to bloat the mind to think the non-sense that many times life circumstances offers ..its only work and go back home to their family tired and retire to bed to come back the next day.

As I sit, view them from my window and think, my mind is full of thoughts .worthy or not ... bloating my mind which many time lead to well of emotions ... too much time at hand it seems or is it luxury ... do I need to learn from them...

Footprints

Yesterday I had left footprints in the park, today they were there not..
Why did I search for my footprints?